I'm weird too...hahaaaa

Xm (Qila)... when you came to my house yesterday you told me that you are weird... that why you having some problems with your friends at your uni...

I think, I'm weird too...if something happen, I guess it is because of myself. So far, only 3 of you understand me... I also dont know why I cant show that part of me to my new world... the world after high school... I tried...

It is not that I become a different person at my uni... It is just that there's "part" of myself that people here dont know... I feel it when I'm with you guys... I always wonder about it... Therefore I declare that I'm weird tooooo.....

Going Back to Uni

Tomorrow I'm going back to my university... My feeling right now is quite misarable... It is because, on 28th September, I have Microbiology examination. I didnt study much at home since I'm still in hari raya mood...hahaha...

I'm quite dissapointed this year coz my best friends and I cant gather toghether. I went back to my house late. Aqila too... So, I only meet Qila while Hana meet Iqeen. Both Hana and Iqeen spend their hari raya here... I wonder when 4 of us can meet... We only talked on the phone...

Wahhhhhhhh....so stress about this coming exam!!! I hate having exam after any occasion or holiday like this... I know I should read but my mind is somewhere else... I only open the book but I'm not really sure what did I read... God...please help me... T_T...

Celcome and Maxis... what happen to both of you????

I feel like talking with my three best friends during the raya night. I called them one by one but failed... I don't know how many times I press their numbers. Tired of using my maxis number to call them, I use my mom's celcom number. It is still the same. The line is full but I cant make any call.

Luckily Iqeen are online. We are able to comunicate through the chatting box in the Facebook. But, someone came to her house so she need to excuse herself. Then I manage to call Qila... We just talked for about three minutes and then my mom asked me to her my aunt for a while. This time, I have to excuse myself. When I finished all the chores, I can't contact her anymore (sigh~~~). A few minutes latter, there's a dial tone when I tried calling Hana. But nobody answer the phone... I give up after three times trying.

About an hour latter, I got message from Hana saying that she was helping her farther at the kitchen. She also said that she was on the phone taking to her sister that studying at the Ireland. They must be talked about many things since it is the first raya without her sister... Then, Hana called me. I pick up the phone quickly once I saw her name appear on the screen. And the conversation goes like this...

Hana : "Hello...."

Me : "Hello.....!!!"

Hana : "Can you here me????"

Ana : "Yes, yes what did you say??? I cant really hear you...."

Hana : "Hello, can you hear me???"

Ana : "Hello....."

Hana : tut tut tut tut tut tut......

The line is gone..... (sigh~~~~~)...

So, during the hari raya night I only can talked to my best friends about...

Qila ~ "Hello..."

"Where are you? BP, KL or JB?"

"I can't contact F3"

"I need to go to kitchen"

Iqeen ~ "What are you doing?"
"Assignments during raya night???"
"Where did you celebrate raya this year?"

Hana ~ "Hello"
"Can you hear me???"

Chingu ya... saranghe....

I think...

I feel like playing with fireworks. Lots of people here playing it with their family. I used to do it long time ago... I also dont really remember when is the last time I played it together with my relatives. I guess it was 6 years ago... I miss those time so much... My cousins are getting older. They are either get married or going overseas. Maybe I shouldt think of playing like that anymore. But, deep in my heart. I really want it... Therefore, sometimes I'll buy the fireworks and play them by myself... Of course it is quite boring...

Since my cousin get married, I'm able to call his wife "kakak" (sister). When were preparing the food yesterday, I purposely help her in anything that she did. It is because when I dont know how to do something such as how to cut the vegetable, I will ask her. By this way I can called her "kakak". "kak, how to cut this?", "kak, how to open this?" and lots more "kak". Although sometimes I already know how to do it. I just enjoy saying that word.

I dont have any siblings and that's why I'm very excited about it. I know, actually it can't consider as my "kakak" since she is not event my sister in law. I just use any chance that I have. My aunt's children are all boys. So, the youngest child of my aunt said that he is very happy to get a sister in law. During the wedding, when we gathered around along the table, he suddenly told my 2nd uncle like this "pak ngah, it's very good to have a sister....". I envy him so much....

At my college, I have a classmate that 1 year younger than me. Because she is cute and look like a kid, I call her "adik" (younger sister). I'm really happy that I can call someone like that. I always look for her or ask her if I want to know about something. I just feel happy to be able to say "adik".

Because of the junior and senior relationship, lots people will call me "kak Ana". However, that only because of the seniority and politeness. But, I still like it too. So, I always approach the juniors and sometimes if my there's junior that same age with me call me "kak Ana" I just accept it. Hahahaha.... However, no one ever call me "adik". I really want it..... Having a family that consist of bothers and sisters must be very good...

Preparing Hari Raya food....

I woke up quite late today coz of the Boys Over Flower... luckily I still manage to help preparing the food for tomorrow. We cook laksa Johor and Ketupat palas. I like ketupat palas the most. Everbody cook the food happily... We chat a lot and joking around. It's too pity that I'm not really good at talking. I have lots to tell them as well but I just be a good listener and just respond to every questions.

During the night, I help my aunt organizing the hari raya cookies. They look so delicious and beautiful... We also contact both people that at oversea through the webcam. My cousin proposely playing the hari raya song loudly to make his brother cry. However, instead of him, I'm the one who feel like crying...T_T...hahahaha...

At Alor Setar, Kedah...my beloved village ^_^...

My family and I now at my aunt's house in Alor Setar that located at north of Malaysia. We arrived here yeterday. It took 12 hours to go there by car from my house that located at the south of Malaysia.

Bacause of the tired journey. everybody went to sleep early last night. However I went to bed at about 3.00 am because I watched Boys Over Flower. I suddenly feel like watching it... At the same time, I miss my best friends Iqeen, Qila and Hana. I wonder when we can celebrate Hari Raya toghether....

It was so fun kast night... I watched my cousin played the fireworks and "mercun". I feel like playing it too but I'm not so interested at that time. This year, we'll celebrate hari raya with a new member of the family. My cousin just get married last June. He get married at young age since he already ready to build a family. I like her wife so much... She is very famiky and sweet...^^

However, two people are missing this year. Two of my cousins went to Ukraine and Australia to further their studies...

내 사랑아 (Nae saranga)

I still don’t know love,

I don’t know who you are

When will love come to me?

Waiting for U love...

Can’t you get a little Close to me

My love, Babe my sweet heart

All those other people

How can they think of love?

Am I the only one who doesn’t know how?

Very warm and comfortable

And sometimes sweet

With such love you were always with me

This is the part of the lyrics of korean song entitled "My Love Come to Me"...

I feel this lyrics suit me... This is what I feel. I never fall in love before and never interested in someone. When I think I got crush on somebody, it just fade away the next day. I also even didnt remember his looks after that...

I'm not sure whether I consider abnormal. Everyone around me ever been into relationship at least one. Still, they can't stimulate me to find a boyfriend... I didn't open my heart for boys... It's not that I don't want to be in love... Maybe my aspactation on them too high... I don't know... Just hope he will come to me one day... My SEO-ULmate... hehehe...

Lalalalalala.....

Where's is my SEO-ULmate???? where are you??? Dugu seyo???

Rutine oh rutine...

I didnt do anything when I'm at home... Just watching tv. Now I'm watching one of my favourite shows, "Screning Huminity". I like it very much... ^_^...

Hari Raya Holiday...

I'm home again!!!!

After facing all those difficult papers, I'm finally home... hari raya is coming... what do I feel??? I also dont know... Maybe because I dont really feel like celebrating it...

I miss my childhood Hari Raya... those days were really meaningfull. It is different now... I cant really remember what I did during those previous 7 years hari raya... The excitement slowly fade away...

No matter what, I still bought lots of baju raya. Today, my parent brought me for shopping. I get three new clothes. I rare buy clothes. Therefore my mom will buy me lots of clothes when I say I want it....hahahaha...

p/s: xm...our DEES... when can we go there???

Followers???

My blog seems going to have a few followers... they are the persons that I knew... I'm quite shy about it... I thought of keeping this blog to myself since it is like my diary... But, maybe it'll be nice if I can share it with others too...

I want to write more but I cant really focus anymore... There'll be Organic Chemistry exam tomorrow... Waaaa.... I hope I can answer all the questions well.... But...need to study first....T_T

First paper...already difficult...T_T

naneun naneun babongabwayo geudae geudae bakke moreuneun babo
geuraeyo geudael boneun mam

neomu banjjak banjjak nuni busyeo no no no no no
neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun oh oh oh oh oh
neomu jjarit jjarit momi tteollyeo gee gee gee gee gee
o jeojeun nunbit (oh yeah~) o joheun hyanggi (oh yeah yeah yeah~)

~~~exam was so difficult~~~ T_T..... gee gee gee gee gee...hah!