Another Moody Day...

It's been a long time since my last post in this blog. I'm not busy or there's nothing that prevent me for writing. It's just I'm a bit lazy to write. There's nothing special happend to me to be talked about.

However, I want to congrulate my cousin for his wedding on 11 June 2009. He get a very pretty wife... Congratulation.... (n_n)....

I feel a little bit moody today. There's nothing I can do as usuall. Sitting alone in front of the television make me think a lots. Hmmmm......I wonder what's wrong with me today????

The weather today is good. Not too hot and not too cool. I'm physically comfortable but my heart ache so much...

As I'm growing up... I watch many people around me becoming success. They are...

Abble to fullfill their dreams
Become more beautiful
Become smarter and wiser
Become happier and fun
Become more mature

They really become a better person....

People around me...one by one manage to get what they want. They manage to achive their target. They are becoming what they hope for. It's only me who always left behind. I feel like I'm useless. I'm not so good in my study, I gain weight everyday, and all my dreams never come true.

I wonder what should I do about myself???? It's so depressing. I hope God will answer my prayer... I hope God is willing to listen to me... I hope God understand my desire and hope... I hope I my wish come true...I hope and I hope...

I keep praying for God will listen to me... I'm not good enough to be God's favourite servant and khalifah. But I believe that God is kind and loving... He will listen to all His servant wishes and fullfill some of the wishes. I hope I'll be one of the lucky servant...

It's really painfull living a life like this... Thankful I still have God with me...