Semester Lane

My friend just imformed me that the last semester exam result might came out sooner. I feel disturbed upon hearing the news. My head ached and I feel that my eyes become watery... I always face this situation... almost every semester... but the last semester was the most difficult for me... I'm becoming "result phobic". I'll automaticly disturbed and cry if anyone mention about result... I'm too scared to face it...

As I lost half of my courage, I tried getting them by talking to my friends through the email... But at this moment, the facebook refuse to coorarate with me... it suddenly can't be open... the web browser turned jam... I quickly switch to my blog and writing this... feel slightly calm...

Others might not understand this feeling... Some might say just take it easy and it's nothing... Some wouldn't understand it since they never be a failure... It is not strange since they are not me... Aaaaa.... I hate the feeling of dipress like this... I don't want to sound pathetic. But still I can't run from that feeling...

I dont know how much longer I need to face this. Being phobia about something really make me sick....

How I need someone here to comfort me right now...